My Dirty Little Secret

I watched Oprah today and yesterday...snippets here and there. It was about mom's sharing their dirty little secrets. I laughed hysterically when a mom admitted to creating lunch out of all the snacks in the car...I thought wow I can't even imagine being able to find anything in my van and another woman admitted that her secret to discipling was to have her children believe she was a little bit crazy...well I started thinking of my own dirty little secret. Hmmmm where to begin I swear alot in front of my kids I know I know but it is such a release when you are having a crazy day, I feel like I am a gerbil running on one of those wheels not getting anywhere all the time, I cannot wait till my children will do all my dishes without getting water on the floor, my house is a disaster and I wonder will it ever get better, I have three sons and I am hating hockey...I think it is just overload...will I ever be one of those mom's that know's all their stats all the kids and corresponding numbers, I believe that one day someone will show up at my door and say you have been fooling everyone else but you don't fool us as a mother, I believe my messy house is healthy and helps build up a healthy immune system, I believe that letting my kids walk down the hill from the bus stop by themselves is good for them and helps build trust and helps build good decision making. I know I am not a perfect mother I wouldn't want to be I think your children are not only supposed to learn from you and seeing that nobody is perfect and nobody is right all the time, everyone makes mistakes and has to apologize for them whether you called someone a name or swore whether you are big or small. Parenthood is the most challenging, hair pulling, frustrating, overwhelming job in the world but it is also the most rewarding.